Thursday, February 26, 2009

The 1,234,567,890th second approacheth

Well, actually, it already passed. I didn't catch this until after it happened but even so it's one of those fun trivial things that us techies like. At least this time there wasn't all the hysteria like when the 1236388191st second passed.

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Sunday, February 22, 2009

Can militias contain the Taleban?

Can militias contain the Taleban? By Ian Pannell | BBC News, Paktia province, south-east Afghanistan - "The insurgency has raged and grown in this part of the country. Paktia borders Pakistan and is a route for insurgents coming into the country. The Taleban and al-Qaeda have a growing presence here and clashes between them and government and foreign forces have escalated.

But Ahmadabad district is an exception, thanks to the gunmen of the Arbakai, a tribal militia that has protected this area and its people for centuries, making it something of a safe-haven from the violence all around.

This is an interesting article on how one district in Afghanistan has been able to keep the violence and bloodshed out. There's some debate as to whether this is a good or bad thing but I think people there want to live without the fear and death. With a little help they could have a good chance at it.

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Saturday, February 21, 2009

He didn't but he will now

Well, I really blew last week. I didn't get anything done for last week but it all ended up helping me out in the end.

With the way the last few weeks have been I was worried I wouldn't pass the programming class this semester. But I'm finally feeling better physically, which is the biggest problem, and I lucked into a way to finish out the semester strong. The Computer Applications class is, well, beyond easy. I can get the entire weeks work done in one evening. That's what I did this week. Then I tried doing most of the programming classwork the next evening. I was able to read the material, take the quiz and start the programming assignment. This gives me plenty of time to work on the assignment. With some elbow grease I can finish out the semester strong enough to get a B grade.

This looks like something usable for the rest of my time in school, too.

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Saturday, February 14, 2009

Will he or won't he?

Good question.

I haven't done anything at all this week for school. Not a damned thing. If I don't get something done my grade will be zero and I'll end up tanking this semester. That's not a good thing. Especially with the amount of money the student loan racked up.

So what's to do?

I will need to get as much done as possible tomorrow. Tonight is shot; my brain is toast. Burnt toast. Thus the afore asked question. So...

Will I or won't I. Will I get anything done tomorrow?

I'm giving 20 to 1 against.

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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Lost In The Wilderness

Man In The Wilderness - Styx

"Ten thousand people look my way
But they can't see the way that I feel
Nobody even cares to try

I spend my life and sell my soul on the road
And I'm still in the dark
'Cause I can't seem to find the light alone

Sometimes I feel like a man in the wilderness
I'm a lonely sailor lost at sea
Drifting with the tide, never quite knowing why
Sometimes it makes no sense at all
Thirty years ago I went through some of the worst times a 17 year old boy could endure. It was about a girl, of course. Since then I have known good times and bad times which put everything in perspective. But when you're 17 and in love for the first time it can hurt like hell. It's the kind of pain that is unique; nothing else will ever feel like it. It felt like I was the protagonist from "Man In The Wilderness" by Styx, off of their Grand Illusion album. I listened to that song over and over.

Fast forward to today. This last week or two I have felt like that man, lost in the wilderness again.
"(I'm alive)
Looking for love, I'm a man with emotion
(And my heart's on fire)
I'm dying of thirst in the middle of the ocean
(I'm alive)
This time, though, it's not because of a girl. In fact I'm not sure what has been happening to me. My life isn't anywhere near as bad as it has been. I'm getting along wonderfully with my ex, I'm relating to my son almost as good as when he was eight, my pain hasn't been that sever overall, I'm going to University to get a degree which will help me provide a much better life for my son. I even look better than I have in a long time. So what's the problem?

I honestly don't know.

Maybe I'm afraid of succeeding.
  Maybe I'm terrified of failure.
    Maybe I'm not fated to be happy.
      Maybe I'm carrying a curse.

Right now, I don't care. I just want to crawl into a hole and, well, not die... hide. If there was a deserted island with electricity and a 'Net connection I would go and spend the rest of my days alone on the beach. I simply don't care.
"Sometimes it makes no sense
Sometimes it makes no sense
Sometimes it makes no sense at all
Makes no sense at all, at all
Can't find the meaning of it all
Can't find a...
No sense whatsoever.

Monday, February 09, 2009

Star Trek communicator actually communicates

Star Trek communicator actually communicates | By Charlie White | 3:07 PM ON 02/05/09 - "Will somebody just go ahead and make this timeless design into a regular cell phone?"

I WANT this!

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Saturday, February 07, 2009

Falling behind

Things aren't going well in my programming class. I got behind a couple of weeks ago and it's just been snowballing. Tomorrow (Sunday) I will have to do some serious reading, coding and take the weeks test. Plus I also have to take the test in the other class. It's extremely unlikely I'll get an A for this class, but all I need is a passing grade.

In order to get that, though, I need to figure out what's getting in my way. I think it might be the remnants of the defeatist in me. Or it could be fear; fear of trying and failing. It's always easier to not try and fail. The most aggravating thing is that I know I can do this. Yes, the material in the programming class is difficult. But it's not beyond me.

Time to fake some self motivation and discipline. Like the saying goes, "Fake it 'till you make it."

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Only one word

$DEITY help us, another mem. I get sucked into these on Facebook for some godawful reason. I hate them as they are nothing but electronic chain letters. Most I just ignore but occasionally I do get trapped into doing one. However, I refuse to pass it on via email or friend notes or whatever. This is the closest I'll come to spreading this viral insanity.

Ok, here we go...

USING ONLY ONE WORD! It's not as easy as you might think! Copy and change the answers to suit you and pass it on. It's really hard to only use one word answers. Be sure to tag the person you received it from!

1. Where is your cell phone? Pocket

2. Your significant other? None

3. Your hair? Cut

4. Your mother? Mum

5. Your father? Hero

6. Your favorite season? Salt

7. Your dream last night? Schizophrenic

8. Your favorite drink? Sprite

9. Your dream/goal? Unknown

10. What room you are in? Bedroom

11. Your hobby? Multifaceted

12. Your fear? Acrophobia

13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Breathing

14. Where were you last night? Asleep

15. Something that you aren't? Employed

16. Muffins? Pass

17. Wish list item? Health

18. Where you grew up? Germany

19. Last thing you did? Photograph

20. What are you wearing? Shorts

21. Your TV? On

22. Your pets? None

23. Friends? Online

24. Your life? Sucks

25. Your mood? Even

26. Missing someone? Yes

27. Car? None

28. Something you're not wearing? Shoes

29. Your favorite store? Book

30. Your favorite color? Red

33. When is the last time you laughed? Now

34. Last time you cried? Yesterday

35. Who will resend this? Nobody

36. One place that I go to over and over? Bed

37. One person who emails me regularly? Snowball

38. My favorite place to eat? Kitchen

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Pic Shows Man Robbing Stores With Klingon Sword

Pic Shows Man Robbing Stores With Klingon Sword | POSTED: 6:45 am MST February 4, 2009 | UPDATED: 4:03 pm MST February 4, 2009 | COLORADO SPRINGS, Colo. -- "A surveillance picture released by police Wednesday afternoon shows a man armed with what appears to be a small Klingon sword, holding up a 7-Eleven convenience store.

That same man robbed another 7-Eleven store store a half-hour later, and remains at large, Colorado Springs police Lt. David Whitlock said.

Both clerks described the weapon as a Star Trek Klingon-type sword, called a "Bat'leth."

This story is simultaneously cool and disturbing. To bad the clerk didn't have a Klingon Assassin's knife.

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Monday, February 02, 2009

Nine years

Today, nine years ago, my father passed away. It's strange to be 46 and still feel kinda lost with out my Dad. But the heartache isn't as bad now, though. I still remember him and he visits in my dreams on occasion. Still, I miss him.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Another day, another pain-in-the...

This has been one of the worst weeks in a long time. The FM pain hasn't been this bad in a while. This interfered with my school work such that I have hardly gotten anything done (and the deadline is Midnight MST). But that's not the worst of it. I'm probably going to miss the family Superbowl gathering.

There's some potential light ahead, though. My son will be here in a few hours and will be staying for a few days. That always makes me feel better.